“I Will Go Sailing No More”

Found this song on Youtube, since I never watched any of the Toy Story movies. What a depressing, yet poignant song about life, getting older, etc. As I mentioned before, as I have some arthritis, there are certain things I could do 5 years ago that I can’t do now–which makes this song especially hit home for me. The song is called, “I will go sailing no more”

You never know what life is going to throw at you, and what effect it will have on your mind,body, spirit,etc. I’ve been lucky in the sense that there are a lot of things I got done when I was younger–like travelling, cycling, etc, so that I don’t have too many regrets about not doing them. Sadness, yes…because some of the stuff I’d have more trouble doing now.

Mark Twain said it best…

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

I don’t know…it’s been a really frustrating couple of months–like a car in a snowbank, trying to get out…wheels are spinning, and absolutely no movement is happening. Of course, it would go more smoothly and ideally if I had more patience. lol!! Patience is not my virtue–never has been. Whether it’s with friends, family, co-workers, the man, or God…I don’t like to wait. I’m the type of person who’d pray, “Lord, give me patience, and I want it now”.

Of course, with everything..there are upsides and downsides. Not being patient often gets people moving, and improves the chances of getting what you want, because you’re not willing or able to wait while people take their sweet blessed time for absolutely no reason whatsoever. NONE. Of course, if that isn’t the case…being impatient only increases your stress level to the point where you’re apoplectic.

Sorry…went off on tangent there. In regards to the title of the post…”I will go sailing no more”, I mentioned not being able to do some of the physical things I used to do. But I think it can also refer to other things as well. Relationships, friendships, interactions with co-workers, bosses, strangers, etc. While the song usually denotes a negative connotation, I’m thinking that it can refer to a positive one as well, if you stretch it a bit.

Simply put–I’m making a conscious choice to be better, to do better, to recognize my limitations, and to live with them. Like I said, it’s a bit of a stretch.

I’m steeling myself to take an action which is all likelihood will end badly. Very badly. I think that it still needs to be done in order for me to grow and to move on and fully and completely heal. It’s entirely possible that while things may get better, that in all likelihood things will get worse for a time, and then better as I move past it.

Stay tuned.