Tales from the couch: Part 8

Hey, hey!!!

Greetings and salutations!

Sorry for the delay! I’d love to say that there was a deep and meaningful, angst filled session, but alas, that isn’t the case. This session was foundational/exploratory.

We talked about my childhood, my experiences, facets of my life growing up which I presume will be used to help me deal with my treatment going forward.

We also read a letter that I wrote to my 18-year old self to delve more deeply into my life and my history. She said I wrote well, so there’s that! I was tough on myself as a kid.

More importantly though, we talked about fear and control. That’s where the meat of the session took place.

I’ve learned that fear and control are intertwined. By wanting to control everything and everyone, I’m trying to eliminate surprises and the fear of the unknown happening. Fear isn’t necessarily a bad thing, especially if it’s something that can be overcome or something that really shouldn’t be feared.

And yet. Here I am, being controlling and fearful. How we break through that paradigm and move past that so that I’m more confident, realistic, and authentic is the goal.

That’s all for now!!