It’s been a minute

Greetings and salutations! Alas, we’re still in the middle of a roaring pandemic, BUT there are vaccines on the way. Plural! Hopefully 2021 will bring us to a semblance of a normal life when all is said and done.

Being single has been incredibly tough during this time. It’s totally disrupted my routines and caused added stress. However…all of that being said, I’m doing pretty well. I’ve managed to stay healthy, I’m still gainfully employed and my friends and family are well. OOOOH…and I submitted a story to Modern Love, a column in the NYTimes!

All of that notwithstanding, the pressures have been intense. The desire to rekindle old friendships has been strong, even if that’s not a good option to undertake under any circumstance whatsoever.

I realized that with one person, I was trying to rekindle a friendship for all the wrong reasons, so I temporarily removed myself from his life. I’ve learned that I have the strength to move forward and not go back.

As for Special K., I won’t lie, gentle readers. Some days, I have been ever so tempted to “swallow my pride” and ask how he’s doing in the midst of this worldwide crisis. However, I’ve managed to stay strong. A friend of mine put it best. “Contacting him implies a far bigger defeat and potential rejection than you are ready to accept. Like you said bitch has your number.” Clear, succinct, and to the point. In a year where people are dying from a disease that has no cure, in a year where Will Smith and Janet Hubert-Whitten are talking…TALKING, in a year where unbelievably 75 million people voted for Trump…one might think this would be the year to break and give in.

To that, I say…”In a pig’s eye.” It may sound crazy, but I draw my inspiration from Baroness Thatcher, and Winston Churchill. They were known for being tough, direct, resolute, and never surrendering, even when the chips appeared down.

As my therapist said to me, “You are responsible for you.” I take pride and comfort in following that mantra. EVEN THOUGH I suspect that SK has been lurking, I think…nay, I know I’m better than that. I’ve improved, and gotten more confident.

I have barely talked about the pandemic, and Trump, and a host of other topics I want to get to. So, that’ll be coming up in the future. Just wanted to let you know how I’m doing.