So I went to see a professional to deal with the emotional turmoil that I've been going through, and to get some clarity about the stuff I've been going through. I learned that it's ok to have needs and to get them filled and not to feel guilty about that. In my own way I... Continue Reading →
Tears
I think of what I've screwed up, and tears flow.I think of what I miss, and I cryI wonder about the futility of life, and finding a special someone, and I weep.I reminisce of the good times we had, and I sob.I ponder if our friendship can be repaired.I lay in bed, my mind going... Continue Reading →
Believe it…or not!
Question. Do you believe in psychics? Fortune tellers? People who can predict the future? As much as I'd like to give a clear cut answer, I'm going to firmly answer "NO, but." No, I don't believe people can predict the future in the way shown in the movies, or on those psychic hotlines. I do... Continue Reading →
Will we make each other happy? Damn the lists!
I know I've gone on about lists, and qualities that my perfect person should have. And there's nothing inherently wrong with that. However...at the end of the day, will he make me happy? Will I be happy spending time with him? Will time fly when we're in each other's company? Can we burst into fits... Continue Reading →
Didn’t we almost have it all?
I was listening to Whitney Houston singing this song, and I admit it did make me feel nostalgic. Regrets, nostalgia, happy memories, etc, are all a part of life, aren't they not? As well as speculating on what life could be, or could have been. I try not to indulge in regrets, but being human,... Continue Reading →
Charming the morning dew right off the honeysuckle…
I was having a discussion with a friend of mine about politics, and politicians, and the conversation inevitably lead toward "charm", or charisma, and more to the point...if I had one or the other. I'm going to drag some words into this post by people more erudite than I. Oscar Wilde said "All charming people,... Continue Reading →
Third Wheel, Doctor Who, and Relationships too…
Third wheel: "a person hanging out with two people (usually a couple) that are in a sense leaving him/her out. Called the third wheel because... "Having any odd number of wheels on an object generally messes it up." I had the occasion (unfortunately) to be put into a situation where I was made a third... Continue Reading →
I am Frankenstein’s Monster
Some days are harder than others, especially in terms of self image. Every now and then, I list the qualities and characteristics that I can bring to a relationship, and curse the fact that it is wrapped up in such an unattractive package. “There is love in me the likes of which you've never seen.... Continue Reading →
How I would love you…
So, the continuation...lots of things I want in a partner explained in the previous post, but don't get me wrong: I realize that things are give and take. I would be remiss if I didn't mention what I'd give my special someone. I would be a rock for you. You would have my undying support... Continue Reading →
Flaming Desire: Waiting for “The One”
Being single, it's so hard to wait for that perfect person. So, very hard. Especially when you're impatient like me. My prayer for being less impatient goes something like this: Lord, give me patience and I want it NOW. Sort of like Veruca Salt in the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory movies. She wants what... Continue Reading →